Thursday, July 14, 2005

I am trying to break your heart

There’s a danger in linking emotions to objects of art. Emotions are volatile yet art objects (songs, books, paintings photographs) remain resolutely the same, infinite in their “objectitude.” I fear I’m losing the connection to songs I use to feel deeply about. Tones have grown hollow, distant and tinny. Whatever circuit that bridges the gap between digitally encoded sound and bruised, weary eardrums, eliciting that ache in the chest and shiver up the spine, has lately been left Off. In a panic I start to intellectualize, paying more attention to the physical details of a song, it’s composite parts, recording techniques, arrangements – oops, off-key vocal there, wow these lyrics are kind of trite, that bridge sounds so forced – dismantling a marvelous device until its simply a pile of nuts and bolts. I am terrified of this happening to all the music I’ve invested in thus far, leaving nothing but a trail of used-up songs behind me, like cracked peanut shells.


Andreas said...

Yeap, that is exactly what will happen. If you know too much about something it is impossible to feel deeply about it. You can only love what you do not understand.

Austen said...

Keller, that doesn't make sense. Love has nothing to do with how much you understand something. It seems the emotions change because you change and no longer understand the object--or at least that's how I feel about art.

Van said...

I've spent these past few weeks actually trying to gather songs to remember this summer! It's hard to do on purpose. Only rule I've found so far is I can't use songs already deeply attached to other times in my life. Yes- totally a phenomenon.
For the record with regard to the love vs. understanding discussion- I don't believe in love... except of course between me and Asia Argento, we're newly engaged and working hard on a date, stay tuned!